Many people that die, die with many things left unsaid.. I don’t wanna be that girl.. I wanna be the girl that’s always in trouble for talking too much.. I mean I wanna feel things and be able to speak about it.. I wanna scream and yell when I think something is wrong or stupid. And I wanna be yelled at for saying the wrong things at the right time and the right things at the wrong time.. As long as they’re said.. I wanna be the girl that isn’t afraid to walk backwards when her life seems out of place.. I wanna be the girl that pauses time while being in her fire escape smoking a blunt because life just seems fucked up.. Oh and I wanna be able to jump around when life is boring and still. .. I don’t wanna be the person that thinks every day is the same.. I wanna create new memories.. Always.. With new people or old friends.. As long as memories are created.. So I can visit them whenever I want.. Like now.. While at work.. I wanna be able to cry and not be afraid to do so.. Because I know too well how it feels to cry on dark nights wishing someone would light up your world.. I wanna be free.. And courageous.. And I wanna risk whatever has to be risked.. And take chances when ever they’re presented to me.. Or not.. Maybe ill take them anyway.. No matter how terrified I am of the future. I wanna be able to tell those I love.. I love you.. In the midst of time… Whatever time.. As long as they know.. I wanna be the girl that’s always smiling because she knows tomorrow is just another chance to make things better.. I don’t wanna be afraid of the fall.. I wanna be the girl that knows the harder the fall the higher the bounce… Oh yea, and I wanna be the girl who isn’t afraid to love.. To share.. To put her heart in other persons hands trusting them enough to take care of it even after knowing they have the power to destroy it.. I wanna live.. Everyday.. Not just having a pulse.. And a heartbeat.. No I actually want to live.. And let live.. Many people that die, die with many things left unsaid.. I don’t wanna be that girl.. I wanna be myself.. Regardless of who you may think I am.. Or should be.. Me.. Myself.. Always.
BY: StacieMarie Sosa